hate

i've been thinkin and anything whatso ever having to do with me gettin better is a hassle to my family and i desperately need their help to do the talkin. i don't even know why i still try. everyone is so lazy. maybe i'm the one with problems, anxiousness or somethin. my attitude is too go-get-it like, i really don't even know if it's me. it's so hard not bein able to do things. i, for sure, can't walk. i can't talk- i talk so fast and air comes through my nose when i say somethin. so, i'm now a muted lazy person, exactly both, of which, qualities i hate. well, i'm goin to go back to bein what i am-a lazy-like mute, oh and this isn't a beg for attention, i don't want anyone's attention, k? hm, i could really go for some juice, but i think hi-c made me throw up, so i'm going to figure out what doesn't, so bye.